Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Getting worse

I know talking too much about yourself is a surefire way to lose readers, but a few of you have expressed concern for me and want to know how I'm doing. If you're not in the latter group, this might be a post to skip.

I went to the doctor last Wednesday and she came up with the same diagnosis as the ER doctor: something post-viral. What kind of virus? No one can tell me. And it pisses me off. What the heck is going on with me? To answer my questions, she ordered some blood work and stuck me on a different pill. I started the pills the next morning after they took four vials of blood out of me, and then Laura and I headed to Columbus.

I guess the pills are working alright at reducing the joint pain, but they aren't stopping the horribly painful swelling. My ankles and feet are almost double their normal size and my skin hurts so bad. It literally feels like the skin is ripping every time I take a step. From the tops of my feet to the middle of my calves, the skin is bright red. The biggest problem with this is that the swelling is getting worse every day.

And to be as honest as a friend encouraged me to be, the intense swelling is scaring me. Scaring me to the point of tears on a daily basis. Why is this happening and what does it mean for my future? Will I ever be able to hike again? When can I get back in my garden? What if this doesn't stop? What if this takes away my ability to walk? I'm scared, friends. I'm really scared.

All that said, I'm trying to be strong for Laura. Tomorrow is her pinning ceremony; the culmination of nursing school. This is the woman who jumped into college after being out of school for ten years. This is the woman who jumped past her initial plan of an Associates Degree and the title of LPN, and then past a regular Bachelor's degree with a title of RN, to a better Bachelor's degree with the title of Advanced RN. This is the woman who worked sometimes seventy hours a week, went to school sixteen hours, and had a clinical schedule of twelve hours a week. This is the woman who one semester slept only three hours a night with a nap of two hours in the afternoon for the entire semester. She is such an impressive person and I am so proud of her. I need to be as strong as I can for her tomorrow night. It needs to be all about her. It's going to be hard.

I have another doctor's visit tomorrow afternoon to find out my lab test results and hopefully get some answers. Wish me luck. And thanks for reading.

12 Comments:

Blogger Kimmy said...

Thank you for the update. Please don't ever hesitate to post about you. I'm sure I can speak for all your readers on that...we all care about you.

Continuing to pray on your behalf. Hoping your receive answers soon and will soon be well. Please keep us posted.

Congratulations to Laura. She is definitely one amazing woman!

9:36 PM  
Blogger Kyle said...

wow. I'm so sorry to hear about this. I'm proud of Laura, though.

10:33 PM  
Blogger Swedish Mama said...

Post your heart out, my son. Life isn't all roses--your true friends will remain. I so wish I could hold you and rock you in 'our' red plaid lazy boy. I wish I could do more than just pray--it truly is baffling.

Love you. And, yes, Laura is outstanding, what a great job. Love you too, Laura. Yeah!!!

10:59 PM  
Blogger Jeff and Melissa Blair said...

Congrats to Laura! What a fantastic accomplishment. Hope you start to feel better soon, Sam.

11:21 PM  
Blogger HennHouse said...

Laura IS amazing. A testament to her hard work and your unwavering support.

Love you both. And praying for you.

11:38 PM  
Blogger Adrienne said...

Oh man...I can't say anything new - but certainly ditto to the prayers and thoughts and concerns. And the congrats too!

1:56 AM  
Blogger jen said...

oh sam. thank you so much for the update. i will pray for your healing. and congrats to Laura!!

6:42 AM  
Blogger Dave said...

Sam i was thinking about you the other day. I'm sorry this going on.

congrats on the pinning!

He who hung the stars has you. Rest in Him.

1:09 PM  
Anonymous Cyndy said...

Sam, I will be thinking and praying for you!!!! Tell Laura that I am proud of her and give her my heartfelt congratulations!!! I miss you guys very much. I hope you are feeling better soon!!!!!

6:14 PM  
Blogger *Austin Mommy* said...

You have some amazing things to say about your dedicated wife! Very sweet of you, and a huge congrats to Laura!

As for you...Dude, that sucks and I'm sorry. I'd be scared, too. In fact, I am scared for you and it breaks my heart that you're in such pain - maybe the unknown is the worst part of the pain?? Please post about the results when you know more... Still praying.

11:56 PM  
Blogger Kristen said...

Love You Both!!!

10:17 AM  
Blogger Dave and Betsy: said...

Praying with you Sam. Please keep us posted and freakin' A - Laura! You rock! We're so proud of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bets

9:08 AM  

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