1) So where do I sit in the company now? Where has all this left me?
2) What kind of conclusions did I come to?
3) Where do I go from here? What steps do I take next?
1) I reported to the other branch this morning. I have spoken to a few people within the company and I now know for sure the plan is to eventually remove me from employment. Furthermore, my boss had a moment of error this morning and accidentally said one of the platform positions needed to be cut. He tried to backtrack but it was all the proof I needed. The spot of bright news in this confirmation (if you can call it that) is that within the banking industry it is difficult to get rid of a person. There's a whole process that has to be followed, and that can take over a year. So unless they move me to an even further away branch and I just can't afford to make the drive, I'll stick this out as long as I need to.
2) I spent some time in the woods with some friends last week. In addition to the joy I felt being with those people, the quiet of the trees and the mountains gave me a lot of time to reflect and think. And when it was all over I came out ready to go. Does that mean I don't think my situation sucks anymore? Of course not, it still sucks really bad. But I needed to realize and then decide how I was going to deal with it. My conclusion is I'm just going to push forward. I still have a job, and I still have opportunities to pursue. So that's what I'm going to do.
3) Since it's clear the corporate machine is chewing me up and will eventually spit me out, I need to make other plans. I'm going to take a few days and get settled into my new place. After that the #1 goal is to find another job. That goal will be all I focus on and all my energy will be towards that end. Ell and I will be working on my resume, I'm going to check out the local Internet work sites, and I'll be looking into Monster and the other work sites on the WWW. Thanks to those friends I spoke of earlier, I have a few new ideas and I'm going to do everything I can to figure out how to chase those ideas. It's still scary, but now there is a tinge of excitement in the air.
Thanks again to all of you who have had me in your thoughts. I appreciate all of you and am honored to have you in my life. Thanks for letting me ramble and I promise to leave this topic alone except to share updates on the job search. Until then... here's to being great in O-8.