Tuesday, April 09, 2013

A couple dreams

Dreams have been discussed before in this little corner of the interwebs, so I thought I'd throw out a couple I had last week that were quite dramatic and felt super real after I woke up. I'll also give my best attempt at an analysis of each.

The first dream was about my friend Mike. Mike is married to my sister-from-another-mother, Ginny, and has been my best friend for many years. He is going to be the Best Man in my wedding in three months, and the one guy I can be more honest with and who I never doubt will be the most honest with me. Now that our relationship has been defined, here is the dream:

Dream One:
Mike became the President of the United States. His plain tongue and common sense approach to difficult situations gained him the favor of the free world, and he was voted into office. He made sweeping changes in our country's government but all were accepted because of their basic presentation and the cry for reality over politics. A concern came up over whether he would still be able to be in my wedding. During the dream I got to visit him in the White House, he came to my house in NC, we had a few beers and smoked our pipes, and generally got to still be the Sam & Mike that is so perfect and comfortable. The answer of him being in the wedding kept coming up and I'm not sure was ever resolved, which never brought about anger but rather, sadness.

Analysis One:
I have to wonder if this dream had to do with me moving to NC and moving on with the next chapter in my life. To share complete disclosure at the risk of hurting some feelings, there were only a few people who ever had a chance at changing my mind about moving here, and the friendship bonds with those same people are the only people I ever felt deserved enough hesitation to consider their feelings; Mike was at the top of that list. Living nine hours away and only talking to each other about one time a month on the phone has caused the expected distance between us. I know very little of his daily life and he the same with me. It's not for lack of caring or a divide in our friendship, but only the natural progression of time and distance. We are ever-changing and growing but for the first time in twenty years, we're doing it without each other to share it with. Him becoming something grand and possibly not having the time for me -no matter what- are probably what brought about the dream.

Dream Two:
I was in a park somewhere playing with my seven year old niece, Esther-Faith. (For those that don't know, E-F has spina-bifida and lacks the normal mobility of a child. She gets around either in a wheelchair or with braces and arm crutches.) We were playing with a Frisbee, laughing, petting puppies, and generally enjoying a summer afternoon. At one point she started running in just her leg braces and no crutches. The laughter turned to tears as she was running fast and then tripped, slamming her face and body into the ground. Terror filled my chest as I ran to her side and scooped her up in my arms, my own tears pouring down my face. I raced her to my truck, hugging her so very tight. I frantically tried calling her Dad, my brother-in-law Tim, but to no avail. I buckled her into my pickup truck's broad seat that obviously had no child restraints, and drove as fast and safe as I could to where he was, terrified of the fact she was hurt.

Analysis Two:
My sister and her family had just left from a week long visit to our area of the planet. I love my nephews but have never really connected with Esther-Faith; probably coming from a combination of my sister's desire to keep her special-needs child safe and the fact that the boys want to do more stuff I like to do. The idea of caring for her is undoubtedly daunting and I wonder if the dream came from a place of being scared I would let her down and possibly be hurt.

I welcome your thoughts and perspective...

4 Comments:

Blogger Jeffrey and Melissa said...

What great dreams! I think you hit the nail on the head with the first one. You are probably feeling anxiety over not having that constant connection with your buddy that you have had over the past 20 years. As for dream 2, it could mean that your pending wedding has you thinking about your own future and potentially growing family. Not sure if you two are considering kids of your own, but that sounds like a typical "can I really do this parenting thing" type dream.

Thanks for sharing, Sam. I hope you and your lady are doing well!

1:14 PM  
Blogger Swedish Mama said...

totally agree with Melissa, but have a second possible to #2--all your Shirey neices and nephews adore you and would see you weekly if possible. It is possible that you desire to something with E-F but aren't sure what because of her braces. But trust me, she knows what she wants to do with you, and you better have a fishing pole just for her. Sher is tough and encouraged to do all she can for herself--including fishing with you and horse back riding with her Mom.

4:00 PM  
Blogger Karin Henn said...

I was struck more by the bit about her running without her crutches... RUNNING. WITHOUT HER CRUTCHES. Maybe you don't know this, but we were told she would never walk. And in your dream you can see her running.

Maybe it means that she will. That somewhere deep you can see it. You believe it.

4:12 PM  
Blogger Kristen said...

I saw dream 2 the same way Kiki did... I see it as you envisioning what it will be like when she once again defeats the predictions of her doctors. I truly believe she will run someday without her crutches and when I read your dream, that's exactly what I thought it meant. That not only will it happen, but it will happen before she is an adult.

11:57 AM  

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